OPEN WOUND

I am too emotionally attached to write objectively about tennis.  In almost every match, I have a rooting interest.  Perhaps it's simply a matter of embracing the fact that I write about tennis as a fan rather than a journalist.  I'm not even sure why I fancy myself as some sort of budding tennis journalist.  I am a fiction writer.  One who desperately wants to connect himself to the sport of tennis.  Of course, one day, I would love to have access to the players for interviews, and have the opportunity to be on the "inside" of the game I love, but really, if I'm being completely forthcoming, I want good seats to as much live tennis as possible.

Unabashadly, I am a fan of Rafael Nadal.  He is the guy I root for against all other men in tennis.  For me, cheering for Nadal is much like cheering for my favorite sports team.  I am elated when they win, crushed when they lose.  This has been a devastating year to be a Nadal fan.  Sometime in the Spring, Novak Djokovic figured out how to be Rafael Nadal.  The Djoker conquered Rafa in Indian Wells, then outlasted him in Miami (a match I was lucky enough to attend).  Once the clay court season began, you figured Nadal would have the edge on his favorite surface.  But Djokovic defeated him in Madrid and in Rome.  That was four Masters Series finals in a row.  Surely, Rafa would find a way to avenge those losses on the lawns of Wimbledon.  But, alas, he did not.  Djokovic took his first Wimbledon crown, and Nadal had to admit the Serb was in his head.  Even when Roger Federer was dominating the sport, Nadal still had a head-to-head edge against him.  You never got the sense that Nadal was incredibly frustrated being number 2 in the world because he kept beating the guy at number 1.  Things are different now.  Keenly aware of that heading into the U.S. Open Final, Nadal never had a chance.  He fought bravely, as he always does on every point of every match, but he still couldn't solve the puzzle.  6 finals, 6 losses for Nadal.

This was Novak Djokovic's year.  With only two losses -- one to Roger Federer in the semifinals of the French Open, and one to Andy Murray in the finals of the Cincinnati Masters -- Djokovic can now lay claim to one of, if not the greatest season a man has ever had on the tennis tour.  Rafael Nadal has nothing to be ashamed about.  But he won't soon shake the disappointment of being the second best player in the world, unable to defeat the only man ahead of him.  Honestly, I'm not even playing and it's going to take me some time to get over it.